Dried Teardrops

Woke up today with no reason at all to be down but yet here I am crying for absolutely nothing. What is wrong with me? Why do I feel this way? Why can I not be normal? Am I just overreacting? Am I looking for attention?

I know sometimes feeling down for no reason is okay, but why do I feel guilty about feeling like this? Why do I feel weak for feeling like this? All I really want to do is get back into bed and disappear for the day so instead, I forced myself to get up, get dressed, and do some work. I forced myself to sit outside in the sun, the fresh air, and the green nature. 

Being able to tell yourself not to give up is so hard but if you don't do it who will?

“Crying is all right in its way while it lasts. But you have to stop sooner or later, and then you still have to decide what to do.” ― C.S. Lewis

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Forgotten

Hi Scribblerz. 

Yes, it's been more than a year. I'm sorry for neglecting this blog. Life has been really, really crazy. 

I'm sure you've heard of a mid-life crisis ... but is it possible to go through one at only 26? 

 Let's do a quick recap before I get to my mid-life crisis. 

 I got married! It's been a whole year that I'm married (I have no idea how that is possible). COVID took over the world. This pandemic has changed so many things and has made me think about so many things that I just take for granted. 

 Now that we are all caught up, let's get to my "mid-life" crisis. I have no idea what I want to do in the future, I am so confused about my career and I can feel myself cutting people off again (some good and some not so good). I've made some new friends (believe it or not), they are amazing people and really help me through the difficult days. My mornings are good but as the day goes by I can feel my brain starting to bubble. If you picture a fizzy drink that you start shaking... the pressure builds and builds and before you can help it the top pops off and everything gets messed. My days go by so quickly yet it feels like it's dragging and everything I do feels like it's of no use anymore. Is it really making a difference? Does it really matter? 

 I think I might need a change ... but I don't know if I'm ready for one. I will need to check in again and let you know about that. For now, here's my parting quote. 

 "Sometimes I'm the mess. Sometimes I'm the broom. On the hardest days, I have to be both" - Rudy Francisco

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Heartbreak

Heartbreak, something we all know, felt or heard about. Heartbreak, that terrible lost feeling you get when you realise it's over. Heartbreak, the painful feeling you get in your chest and everything turns grey and gloomy (although gloomy weather is my favourite).

Your first heartbreak is something you can't forget, you're so young, naive and innocent. You get all dramatic, playing sad love songs, dressing emo in black and you feel like the world is coming to a stand still. You do silly things like cut your hair because he said "I like your long hair" or you start wearing hoodies and swag pants because he liked that you dressed girly.

After a while things get better and you stop being depressed (eating 2 McFlurry's , a slab of chocolate and binge watching Dear John everyday) and suddenly you see that it does get better. You realise that you can still go on with life.

One day you walking in the mall and someone catches your eye, you feel the butterflies in your stomach and that feeling comes back, when you realise "Oh no, there we go again"

I guess what I'm trying to say is that no matter how hard times are, you always find a way to get through it and in the end you learn something out of it. I believe that everything happens for a reason and all the heartache, hardship and worries only make you stronger.

So to anyone out there that's going through a difficult time just stay strong, smile and be positive because before you know it everything will be better.

"Cry. Forgive. Learn. Move on. Let your tears water the seeds of your future happiness" - Steve Maraboli.

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