Apology

Hi Scribblerz!

Today I felt the need to write this because I feel a bit alone ... Ever feel like the people in your life are there but not really there for you? 

I've been feeling this a lot lately, I try sooo hard to make people smile, go out my way to be there for someone but when it's my turn to receive it that long list of people that I'm always there for is never there for me, out of the 20 there's just 2 and there's no one else to blame but myself.

Maybe this is a wake-up call for me, I shouldn't give my all to everyone ... I need to learn to give the same energy back that I get from people because right now I feel like my bucket is empty from filling everyone else's and no one is willing to fill mine up for me. 

So this is an apology to me. I'm sorry for not thinking about you. I'm sorry for making you work so hard. I'm sorry for putting you in a place where you are not appreciated. You deserve better!

"Sometimes you nees to give up on people not because you don't care but because they don't." - Unknown 

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xoxo ♡

Forgotten

Hi Scribblerz. 

Yes, it's been more than a year. I'm sorry for neglecting this blog. Life has been really, really crazy. 

I'm sure you've heard of a mid-life crisis ... but is it possible to go through one at only 26? 

 Let's do a quick recap before I get to my mid-life crisis. 

 I got married! It's been a whole year that I'm married (I have no idea how that is possible). COVID took over the world. This pandemic has changed so many things and has made me think about so many things that I just take for granted. 

 Now that we are all caught up, let's get to my "mid-life" crisis. I have no idea what I want to do in the future, I am so confused about my career and I can feel myself cutting people off again (some good and some not so good). I've made some new friends (believe it or not), they are amazing people and really help me through the difficult days. My mornings are good but as the day goes by I can feel my brain starting to bubble. If you picture a fizzy drink that you start shaking... the pressure builds and builds and before you can help it the top pops off and everything gets messed. My days go by so quickly yet it feels like it's dragging and everything I do feels like it's of no use anymore. Is it really making a difference? Does it really matter? 

 I think I might need a change ... but I don't know if I'm ready for one. I will need to check in again and let you know about that. For now, here's my parting quote. 

 "Sometimes I'm the mess. Sometimes I'm the broom. On the hardest days, I have to be both" - Rudy Francisco

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xoxo ♡

Tawakkul

Hi Scribblerz!

The last time I wrote I was in a happy place, this time I'm writing because I need a happy place, a place to put everything, so i can physically see everything that is happening around me.

I'm one person with one mind and what feels like a million people relying on me to either be there for them, hold their hand, be their shoulder to cry one or just to simply smile and have a coffee with them.

I'm not sure how some people do it but I don't sleep at night anymore, I feel like slowly I am failing everyone and everything i do is wrong or pushing myself deeper in to what seem like a black hole that is sucking the life out of me so slowly that i will only realize it when it's too late.

I try to take deep breathes and prioritise things but clearly its not working because I'm currently drowning, gasping for air and engulfing more water.

I look to Allah to help me and have so much faith that He will help but my sabr is running thin, I'm being tested for so very long that it now feels like I'm bring punished for what ever wrong i have ever done.

At least there are a few positives from all this, one is knowing I'm being punished in this world so I will have all the riches in the next and the other is this post, i finally wrote something after so long, so yay me.

Today i wont leave with a quote but rather a word, a simple 8 letter word ...  "Tawakkul"

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xoxo ♡

Priorities

So, its December the 17th and I'm in bed writing this post, I feel sad that I haven't posted in almost 2 months but it is my own doing, I can't blame it on the fact that the wifi is down or that I'm busy because if I really wanted to post it I would have found a way.

This months post is about priority. Learning to prioritize in life is very Important, without this simple skill the things you love and are passionate about will fall away and when you realize it, it might be too late.

I love writing, it keeps me sane and helps me deal with life's problems, it also helps me see the possitive side and see that there will always be light at the end of the tunnel. Today a friend reminded me how much I enjoy writing and that is why I decided to stop everything I am doing and write this post, I will try my best to make writing my top priority and in future will have posts out on time.

I have a challege for all the Scribblerz, sit down and make a list of priorities in your life and try to stick to it, before you know it, it will be a routine and come naturally to you.

One more thing before I go, I would like to thank my readers for following me and reading my posts because without you guys I would have stopped blogging a long time ago, thank you for being around, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year Scribblerz ... Now I just need to figure out how to post this ...

"It's not about having time, it's about making time" - Unknown

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Thank you for reading and have an amazing day!

xoxo ♡

Doors

Hi Scribblers!

So I've been reading a book by Neil Gaiman called Neverwhere and I'm only 3 chapters in but I was paging through it an came across something he said, he said "I lobe doors. Anything that leads to possibilities" and of course I fell in love with the thought and the way it was written. I started thinking about it and decided that this month's post has to be on new posibilities and opportunities.

Every door you go though leads you to a different room, I like to look at life that way, everything you do, every choice you make opens a new door and leads you a different way (that kind of makes me think about those Goosebumps books I use to read where you choose the ending). Sometimes when I'm stuck and can't make a decision I like to think I'm standing a big room with lots of doors and each door is my choice, I contemplate the outcome of each decision by "looking in the room" and the room I like the most is the decision I choose.

We will always have to choose what to do, what to wear, who to talk to or where to go but one thing we need to remember is that what you choose is your choice and it should be chosen because you want it and not because you are forced into it. Our decisions should be our own and our mistakes, our own so we can learn from it and in future be able to better ourselves from the inside and out.

"Your future is full of opportunities and possibilities. It is yours to create, to enjoy or to suffer" - Unknown

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Remember that YOU are in charge of how you feel. 

Thank you for reading and have an amazing day!

xoxo ♡

Destruction

A volcano is slowly simmering, bubbling and starting to heat up. Suddenly it erupts with hot lava, destroying everything in it's path ...

The volcano is now calm and the destruction is done, the once clean, clear, barren land is now covered with red hot bubbling lava.

The lava has cooled, the lands beginning to look normal but if you look closely the very same land has now turned into hard, cold stone ...

Forming this hard surface took time, effort and strength but the land has finally healed.
A sudden eruption occurs and the bubbling hot molten lava is sadly burning and destroy everything in it's path once again ...

But over time the stone will harden again and all the  scratched and damaged will become seen but guess what? There's soil around that stone...

The little bit of soil is now slowly beginning to sprout, becoming something, shaping itself into luscious green grass, some sweet smelling pink roses, growing right from under the destruction...

The barren land can now give life, happiness, belonging and maybe even some brightness to another.

"From my rotting body, flowers shall grow and I am in them and that is eternity." - Edvard Munch

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Confident Me

Self acception is one of the hardest battels we go through in life. Everyone has insecurities and there will always be a time where they bother you no matter how self accepting you are of yourself.

The worst thing to do to yourself is criticize yourself, I always tell people " Never put yourself down because people around you will think it's okay to do it as well". Self criticism is something that becomes a habit. If you do something wrong and hate yourself for it you will find that all your energy will be put towards hating yourself or making yourself feel bad about it for a long time which in turn will cause a domino effect and you will notice you hating yourself for every little thing you do wrong. Did you know, when you let yourself down you tend to stop trusting yourself and stop believing in yourself and that creates an obstacle in everyday life.

So the obvious question is how do I start accepting myself and become a more confident person? Well it's actually very easy, just start by not making big promises to yourself like promising yourself that you will loose 10kg's by the end of the month (when you know it's holidays and you going to be eating junk food and lazing around) or you promise yourself that you'll get 90% on the next math test when you got 60% last term (even though you studied a week before the test and go for tuition everyday), another thing to do is every morning look into the mirror and say this "I accept myself, I love myself, I forgive myself for the mistakes I've done and I will learn from them in future" and eventually you will start believing what you're saying, you'll start accepting yourself, being more confident and becoming truly happy with yourself. Remember don't wait for the world around you to give you permission to be yourself, just accept yourself and happiness will accept you.

"Practice accepting yourself just as you are. Then you will know what love is" - Paul Ferini

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Once Upon A Time

And they lived happily ever after ... how often have we wished that could happen to us?
What is a "Happily Ever After"? And how can I get one?

What if I tell you that you haven't experienced just one Happily Ever After but many many more ...

If you think about a fairly tale it always starts off when things are difficult and the ending is happy because the hardship is over. How many hardships have you as an individual gone through? I'm sure there's a few right? So what rule says that the happily ever after comes at The End? What if you just don't know where The End is and where the new Once Upon A Time is?

When you finished school and wrote that last exam in Matric it was The End of your school life but a new beginning to another stage in life ...

What I'm trying to say is that Yes it is possible to have a Happily Ever After but YOU just need to know where to say The End in order to get it. Life is full of Happily Ever After its up to you to know which one you prefer and which one you feel should be part of a better ending to your story of Life.

Enjoy your story and remember we might be part of someone's chapter but not actually part of their story, we might be the mistake they need to learn from or the best mistake they ever made, no matter what happens let's smile through this crazy story called Life.

"Happily ever after is not a fairytale. It's a choice" - Fawn Weaver

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